Pondering
Well I was reading the blog of one of our fellow DJ's here in Austin, and I have come to realize that he seems to have changed from what he used to be. Or let me be more honest, from what I "judged" was his personality. And I've been pondering on a few things that he mentioned, first that I have come to realize that I judge individuals more often or just plain and simply judge people all together. I was raised to believe that you should not "judge a book by it's cover" and I have attempted to live by that exact "philosophy". But in recent days I have realized that I do judge more than I would like to.
First the DJ, always thought he was just a jackass, but now that I got caught up on his blog he seems to be coming forward with more of who he is and the way that he sees things, thinks. I think above all he is giving a more sense of REALISM about himself. Not just for him but for his readers, and listeners. I find this interesting because he made mention that what his personality and his persona are, are completely different; and that I understand.
But don't get me wrong I don't live my life going around judging everyone. In recent months my nephew, who just turned 19, has been battling his drama with females. And to say one in particular whom his family really do not like. And so when I get a chance I'll talk to him about this not only as an aunt but as a friend, see I'm only 3 years older then him. And being of the opposite sex, close age range, and family I think is why he comes to me for advice or some sort of wisdom. (This comes from all areas of my life because being 22 in age, I am way older in maturity, sometimes a curse, or at least I believe it to be.) So anyways he (my nephew) is asking for some advice about this girl and I don't really know what to say so just as straight as I can I tell him that I don't want to judge her or say something is not true, but from what I have gathered, from his parent, him and his sister, that this girl is not mature, she is self-centered, and using him. And I did not say those things to be "judging" her so much but that is what I get from others including him. So I tell him he needs to talk to her, and to be as honest as he can because if this girl is using him, then she needs to know it, and if not, well she needs to know that, that is how she is coming off. So anyways that's a whole different story but Back to my pondering.
So second I started to ponder on something else that, well is most definitely worth pondering. That is what we have in life, and how much we actually appreciate it. To say I always felt as though I do appreciate what is given to me or what I have worked to accomplish but at the same time I do take advantage of what I have or "bitch" per say about what I'm lacking or "want" not need, WANT! So let's see I have a great job full-time pays my bills, extra cash (at times), food, clothing, a roof over my head, and the ability to live life to the absolute fullest that I can. And yes I still complain, I think we all need to take a look at what we have and what we do, not at what we don't have and want. For the most part this makes me realize that life itself is so precious that we should enjoy every minute given to us. Because in his words "I will never get that minute back." Crazy because he used it in a very different situation. But still very true.
Third LIFE! Why do I bitch about what I lack and what I want, when I have life. Everyday is a great day no matter how good or bad it went or goes for that matter. I have always thanked God for the life he has given me and it's amazing how sometimes it only happens when I see something bad, be it a car accident or a murder or a rape on the news, we should be grateful for life every day when we wake and every night when we sleep. So lets see... I have been as of lately, getting jealous, made, irritated, upset, frustrated, saddened, ungrateful, judging, and very rarely TRULY HAPPY. So I see something wrong with this, and just recently I've caught myself realizing that my life is not so bad, but rather one of the best especially after having come close to death at birth. But one thing that I do see in myself is that when I pray or make a wish or hope for something it's not always for me, it's for someone else. Be it my family, friends, co-workers, or just someone I've never met. Just yesterday I received a chain letter and I hardly believe these or pass them on, but it said make a wish so I said "what the hell, it won't hurt". So I made a wish for a guy, a guy that I have had my eyes set on but I'm to scared or perhaps proud to be the first to make a move or attempt to get any closer then friends, but I did not wish that he would ask me out or for a kiss or for anything like that instead I wished that he live a happy life and find someone who will make him just that much happier in life. And it's interesting because even though I get jealous, and I thought to myself even though I get jealous and if I'm not the one to make him happy I hope he finds that one that will, because I'll get over my jealousy but I won't ever forget making someone's life miserable.
And you know I may not come home to someone that I could spend time with or to family, but I still live a very happy life. If anything I have been given the opportunity to do whatever I want and I continue on a path to success, my education, work, friends, family and anything that comes along I believe I can handle. It's amazing how so many people listen to some of my past experiences and think dang, and I thought I had it bad. But I look back at my life and see that there is so much worse out there, and people who really deserve and need the help and right to bitch as opposed to myself that I be glade to be where I am right now.
So let's see I have pondered on several things today how long will it last... Ask me later and I'll let you know. But God knows that I attempt to be as true to myself as possible, and one thing is for sure I know that I have a heart of gold. This can sometimes cause me happiness or pain, it all depends on what makes me happy. But I never wish bad on anyone, instead the ability for them to see the truth. It's amazing because I just had cable installed at home and you know I love that DVR, but while I'm at work I record "The Dukes of Hazzard" and I love that fact they those two boys and Daisy are so true to themselves, and that they try to the best of their abilities to help others out, even if it is going to get them in trouble. And a small quote of Luke Duke from an episode talking about a miracle in his pocket, "if I had one it would be yours".
PurpleFuel
First the DJ, always thought he was just a jackass, but now that I got caught up on his blog he seems to be coming forward with more of who he is and the way that he sees things, thinks. I think above all he is giving a more sense of REALISM about himself. Not just for him but for his readers, and listeners. I find this interesting because he made mention that what his personality and his persona are, are completely different; and that I understand.
But don't get me wrong I don't live my life going around judging everyone. In recent months my nephew, who just turned 19, has been battling his drama with females. And to say one in particular whom his family really do not like. And so when I get a chance I'll talk to him about this not only as an aunt but as a friend, see I'm only 3 years older then him. And being of the opposite sex, close age range, and family I think is why he comes to me for advice or some sort of wisdom. (This comes from all areas of my life because being 22 in age, I am way older in maturity, sometimes a curse, or at least I believe it to be.) So anyways he (my nephew) is asking for some advice about this girl and I don't really know what to say so just as straight as I can I tell him that I don't want to judge her or say something is not true, but from what I have gathered, from his parent, him and his sister, that this girl is not mature, she is self-centered, and using him. And I did not say those things to be "judging" her so much but that is what I get from others including him. So I tell him he needs to talk to her, and to be as honest as he can because if this girl is using him, then she needs to know it, and if not, well she needs to know that, that is how she is coming off. So anyways that's a whole different story but Back to my pondering.
So second I started to ponder on something else that, well is most definitely worth pondering. That is what we have in life, and how much we actually appreciate it. To say I always felt as though I do appreciate what is given to me or what I have worked to accomplish but at the same time I do take advantage of what I have or "bitch" per say about what I'm lacking or "want" not need, WANT! So let's see I have a great job full-time pays my bills, extra cash (at times), food, clothing, a roof over my head, and the ability to live life to the absolute fullest that I can. And yes I still complain, I think we all need to take a look at what we have and what we do, not at what we don't have and want. For the most part this makes me realize that life itself is so precious that we should enjoy every minute given to us. Because in his words "I will never get that minute back." Crazy because he used it in a very different situation. But still very true.
Third LIFE! Why do I bitch about what I lack and what I want, when I have life. Everyday is a great day no matter how good or bad it went or goes for that matter. I have always thanked God for the life he has given me and it's amazing how sometimes it only happens when I see something bad, be it a car accident or a murder or a rape on the news, we should be grateful for life every day when we wake and every night when we sleep. So lets see... I have been as of lately, getting jealous, made, irritated, upset, frustrated, saddened, ungrateful, judging, and very rarely TRULY HAPPY. So I see something wrong with this, and just recently I've caught myself realizing that my life is not so bad, but rather one of the best especially after having come close to death at birth. But one thing that I do see in myself is that when I pray or make a wish or hope for something it's not always for me, it's for someone else. Be it my family, friends, co-workers, or just someone I've never met. Just yesterday I received a chain letter and I hardly believe these or pass them on, but it said make a wish so I said "what the hell, it won't hurt". So I made a wish for a guy, a guy that I have had my eyes set on but I'm to scared or perhaps proud to be the first to make a move or attempt to get any closer then friends, but I did not wish that he would ask me out or for a kiss or for anything like that instead I wished that he live a happy life and find someone who will make him just that much happier in life. And it's interesting because even though I get jealous, and I thought to myself even though I get jealous and if I'm not the one to make him happy I hope he finds that one that will, because I'll get over my jealousy but I won't ever forget making someone's life miserable.
And you know I may not come home to someone that I could spend time with or to family, but I still live a very happy life. If anything I have been given the opportunity to do whatever I want and I continue on a path to success, my education, work, friends, family and anything that comes along I believe I can handle. It's amazing how so many people listen to some of my past experiences and think dang, and I thought I had it bad. But I look back at my life and see that there is so much worse out there, and people who really deserve and need the help and right to bitch as opposed to myself that I be glade to be where I am right now.
So let's see I have pondered on several things today how long will it last... Ask me later and I'll let you know. But God knows that I attempt to be as true to myself as possible, and one thing is for sure I know that I have a heart of gold. This can sometimes cause me happiness or pain, it all depends on what makes me happy. But I never wish bad on anyone, instead the ability for them to see the truth. It's amazing because I just had cable installed at home and you know I love that DVR, but while I'm at work I record "The Dukes of Hazzard" and I love that fact they those two boys and Daisy are so true to themselves, and that they try to the best of their abilities to help others out, even if it is going to get them in trouble. And a small quote of Luke Duke from an episode talking about a miracle in his pocket, "if I had one it would be yours".
PurpleFuel
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