ME VENTING!!

Well this entry is not going to be very long. I am in a very feisty mood, I am angered, and really perturbed by a huge DUMBASS that I work with. He and his "ways" have pushed me to my limit, and God knows that my limit is far beyond anyone expects. I let so much slide by because I'm not a confrontational person. (My family might think otherwise, but I've known them all my life, they've seen the best and worst of me, I don't hide that from them. And I react quicker to them than other individuals). But either way when it comes to co-workers, friends, strangers etc. I don't "bitch" about the crap that they do or the way that they treat me, I have had many "friends" per say that have taken advantage of what I've had to offer. I have put up with a lot from certain individuals who behind my back attempt to make me look bad and I only put up with it for so long because it will someday come back and bite them in the ass. But there comes a point when you just want to say "@#$% YOU!!!!", and since I can not do this for reasons that may cost me my job or at least a reprimand and HE IS JUST NOT WORTH IT!! So that is why I come here and place it all in the open, so as to keep myself from doing it straight to his face. Chances are that, that is exactly what he would like for me to do, simply because it would make me the bad guy. But I left it all to chance and advised my direct Supervisor and if this harassment does not end, I will move further up on the ladder. (I have been know to do this) Either way this just serves as my venting Sorry that you have to hear it, I'm normally a avery happy person, but it's days like this that I just don't look forward to having. But I thank God for the other days in my life.

PurpleFuel

ONE...

So as you can see I have placed a banner for the ONE Campaign. I have signed this declaration and hope that you too will look into it and sign. (just click on the banner) This is for a great cause and when it comes to helping others that is what I like to do most.

You know I have never read the bible from cover to cover, I am a religious person, I attend mass regularly but not all the time. But if there is one thing that I have learned while growing up with the family that I have, it is that God is not looking for the world's greatest person, he is not counting our sins and keeping score, he is not judging us like we do each other. He is COUNTING on us to help each other. We are all brothers and sisters, deep down to the roots we come from the same place no matter your religion, beliefs, color, hair, eyes, sex, job, etc. I was watching a show one day when I was about 12 or 13yrs. old, and this was shortly after my father had his first heart attack. And in the show there was a couple of individuals that were fighting and at the end the two ended up in the hospital. Well the nurse mentioned something about how "God must feel, seeing his children fighting, hurting, and killing each other" And this is true if you have children (which I don't) but if you do think about how it would make you feel if they were constantly hurting each other showing no remorse, no emotion, no LOVE! I know it would hurt me. The same goes for family if it's your brother, sister, mother, father, aunt, cousin etc. If one of them got hurt or died, would it hurt you? And maybe not a family member just that one person that is so dear to your heart.
This one campaign is about helping each other, it is about doing what our higher power wants us to do, help the poor, help each other The following is a verse (a favorite of mine from the bible):

Matthew 25:31-47 (The Message)
The Sheep and the Goats
31 "When he finally arrives, blazing in beauty and all his angels with him, the Son of Man will take his place on his glorious throne. 32 Then all the nations will be arranged before him and he will sort the people out, much as a shepherd sorts out sheep and goats, 33 putting sheep to his right and goats to his left.
34 "Then the King will say to those on his right, "Enter, you who are blessed by my Father! Take what's coming to you in this kingdom. It's been ready for you since the world's foundation.
35 And here's why:
I was hungry and you fed me,
I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
I was homeless and you gave me a room,
36 I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
I was sick and you stopped to visit,
I was in prison and you came to me.'
37 "Then those "sheep' are going to say, "Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? 38 -39 And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?'
40 Then the King will say, "I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me--you did it to me.'
41 "Then he will turn to the "goats,' the ones on his left, and say, "Get out, worthless goats! You're good for nothing but the fires of hell. 42 And why? Because--
I was hungry and you gave me no meal,
I was thirsty and you gave me no drink,
43 I was homeless and you gave me no bed,
I was shivering and you gave me no clothes,
Sick and in prison, and you never visited.'
44 "Then those "goats' are going to say, "Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry or thirsty or homeless or shivering or sick or in prison and didn't help?'
45 "He will answer them, "I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you failed to do one of these things to someone who was being overlooked or ignored, that was me--you failed to do it to me.'
46 "Then those "goats' will be herded to their eternal doom, but the "sheep' to their eternal reward."

Call me what you will, I don't like to "preach" to my friends or family and I don't but when I am asked what I believe in I will not lie to them, so I will not lie to you. Don't take this entry as me "preaching" "God knows I don't like being preached at either" but do realize that this is what this ONE campaign is all about helping each other, and at the end you will be rewarded.

Thanks,
PurpleFuel

Two Items

First, I AM TIRED!!!, it is just my luck for things to happen this way. When I got off of work yesterday (1am this morning) I got home and watched a couple of movies that I rented and went to bed about 5am. Well a week ago I placed a work order for my A/C it was not cooling my apt. and then it began to blow out hot air so I figured it takes them about two days at the longest to get someone in here to fix it. I figured call it in on Friday and they will be here by Tuesday. Well this logic was simple I figured if they wake me up on one of those two days it won't matter I can sleep later in the day since those are my days off. And to my surprise they came in at 8am this morning. So I let them in and decide well I'll just lock myself in my bedroom and let them work on it out in the hallway. So this was working fine until I was advised that the brakers were located in the bedroom. So they kept waking me every few mins. and I finally just decided to find another place to sleep because, well I had to be at work tonight. So I call up all my friends and they are all working, so I called up an RD here on campus and asked if I could borrow a room for a few hours and she let me stay at her on campus apt. for a few hours and seriously I was tired. So to her I say THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!, and although I only had about 4-6 hours of spread out sleep I think I can hang here at work. I'll figure it out.
Well I had a topic from last night, as I was watching "son of the mask" I was thinking about how cute I think Jamie Kennedy and Alan Cummings look. I mean they may not be "Brad Pitt, or Johnny Depp" but they have some very attractive features. Jamie Kennedy has those to die for blue eyes, and I'm a sucker for blue eyes I don't know why but I am. And looking at Alan Cummings eyes, he has those self flirty eyes, you can just look into them and you find yourself thinking "dang". One of my nephews has those same eyes, he is going to be a heart breaker I can tell. So basically I think I'm just boy crazy right now. I mean I once stated to a friend that I thought Vince Vaughn was hot, and he was suprised that I said that, he did not agree with me. He agreed that there was something attractive about him, but he did not believe he was "hot" like I had stated. But there is a certain charm about him. And his roles don't really protray that, but I can just see it. I mean maybe it's that he meets all the major requirment of the typical type of guy that I'm attracted to tall, broad sholders, killer smile.

I mean don't get me wrong I don't date based on looks if anything that's one of the last things that I find myself worrying about when I go on a date. I mean I think, that aside from all the asinine things that Johnny Knoxville can do, he is incredibly attractive as well. And he is not as tall, broad sholdered, but the killer smile is still there. First things that I notice about a guy are his, eyes, smile and hands (hands I don't know why I think they just have to have those manly looking hands).

Always,
PurpleFuel

WEIRD...

(just FYI, I learned to post images, I'm having fun with this)

Have you ever had one of those days, that you are feeling so crappy and then when the day is set to end you just have that one or two things that bring a smile to your face. Well I've had one today, I've been feeling like crap all day, and this started yesterday (I have an ear infection) and that has been around for a while, and now I have a sore throat and my whole left ear and around my ear is just in pain and it's radiating down under my jaw. I can't lay my head on my pillow without it hurting. So today I get up... My normal routine... And then go to the office to finish my PEP (work enhancement program that we must fill out every year) and I make my changes, and additions to it, print it and do my time sheet I must have been in the office about 3 hours.

Then I came home ate dinner (well it must have been all three together breakfast, lunch and dinner) but I can't swallow a thing, it hurts to much. Then I take some meds and go to bed and about 11:30pm I'm falling asleep and my cell rings it's one of my friends and I answer and this guy always seems to call when I'm either asleep or about to fall asleep, but I'll give him today because I'm normally not in bed at that time. So we talk and he's laughing at me the entire time, I had sprayed some chloraseptic spray in my mouth and throat and my mouth was numb, and he was just laughing at how I sounded.

So anyways I'm attempting to get back to sleep and it's just not happening so I figured I'd get on the net so I'm reading back on my blog entries and come across the one where I talk about the backstreet boys and their single "Incomplete" and decide to turn on the stereo, so I do and to my surprise that exact same song was playing. I thought this was just plain WEIRD (hence the title) it's actually what inspired me to post tonight.

So on another note my A/C is broken and has been this whole weekend and DAMN it's hot in here, THANK GOD for ceiling fans.

LaTeRz,
PurpleFuel

Jealousy...&...Mother's Day

...Okay so I have not ever really been the jealous type, I mean don't get me wrong it does not mean I don't care, or that I really trust them that much, I just never really got jealousy. So get this the only person I have gotten jealous with was my father, I've heard stories from my family that I would see my uncle (who looks very much like my father) and that when I would get home, I would run to my mom and tell her that I saw my dad with another girl. I think I was always one of those "it's my dad, stay away" Yeah I've always been a daddy's girl but I love my mom just as much. So anyway I've recently been getting jealous and I can't figure out why, and only with certain individuals. (This is insane)

So get this I had a dream yesterday, and I woke up so upset...In my dream I was at work and about a group of 15 - 16 students walk into my office. This is weird for a Saturday so I go about helping each student and two of them were just being very difficult, they were harassing me BIG TIME! So I called a couple of my officer in to help me out and they were not busy at the time, and just my luck it took them over 15 mins. to get to the office. I was so upset that when they got to the office I left them to tend to the students and I just went to a corner and began crying.

So it will be Mother's Day in just a few mins. I don't know whether or not to wake up my mother or to let her rest she just had knee surgery a few days ago. But either way If I don't call her early she will understand because she knows that I work late. But either way this is my tribute to her HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! MOM!!! LOVE YA!

Okay so now that has been said, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to my sisters, and sis-in-law's.

LaTeRz,
Purplefuel