Tired

HURRAY!!! TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF CLASSES. now on to WORK!! well i've been so excited, that I am now SO TIRED! and I can't get off of work until 2am. Almost there only 1hr & 20mins.

P.F.

Moving

For the last three years I have become an expert in moving. I have lived in four different places in Austin and am now planning in moving again. Why you ask well my first time in Austin I lived in a Dorm with a psycho roommate, then the second semester stayed in the same room but got a different roommate that was one of my better roommates. Then I went home for the summer and came back and moved into my first Apt. the on campus apts. That roommate was great only she was always at her boyfriends (note: now husband, hers) well then I lived off campus and moved into and apartment where I did not even have the choice to pick it, it was all my roommates idea and she picked the place, that went for the year and was not the best of my life, and I am now living with two a girl and a guy which is not so bad. I am now looking for a new place and I decided to move in with another girl and she is nice and sweet and responsible, which are all the same things that most of my ex-roommates could grab concept of. But I think that if we set our rules we should be fine, it was a rather quick decision but we are going to start off with a small lease then move up to more if we do fine to begin with, and don't get me wrong she picked these apts. as well but I like her taste in apts. so I won't bitch about that, I fell in love with these apts. when I fist saw them and WOW! everything I have been looking for in an apartment complex but never thought I would have and it is affordable. Well God willing this will work out just fine and things will look up for me soon. Well I'm about to get off of work so I'll be back tomorrow with more if not until Wednesday.

P.F.

Big Mouths

Okay, so it has nothing much to do with me, but one thing is for sure I HATE for people to run their mouths if they don't know what they are talking about. So get this today at school the same girl that was trying to tell me what my job was, opened her big mouth again. Well we were in the produce cooler putting away the shipment we had just gotten in and I noticed that there was a chef instructor in the freezer next to the one we were in so I walked in there to see if he needed help well this girl being that "tail" that she is followed me in and while I was attempting to talk to the chef, she butted in and told the chef "your girlfriend has missed work for the last week" (she was talking about one of the girls that works with us and has a crush on him) well he comes back with "I don't know what your talking about I don't fraternize with the students" So I'm here standing between them and I don't know what to do or for that matter what to think. I'm pissed of course because the reason we joke and stuff about our crushes on different chefs in our school is because; well we're girls and young ones for that matter. I mean we are GIRLS, girls talk about stupid stuff all the time and we joke and that is why we get along and make time pass by quick. Well it was none of this girls business to open up to the chef and shock both of us with that comment and I was frozen I was lost for words and could not get out of it, and after a few mins. I finally said "chef it's getting to cold in here so I'm heading out but if you need help with anything just let me know" and we all walked out and I then got on to the girl and told her that she should not have done something so stupid. She knows what happens when rumors get around and I was PISSED. I mean I feel so bad for the chef and for that girl so come Monday morning I'm going to apologize to the chef and let him know that I had no idea she was going to be so stupid. She said that she "was fucking with the chef" and I told her that she could not play like that about a chef and someone else for that matter and she just lashed out with "I was fucking with the chef" I mean this jeopardizes his job if someone would have heard or walked in at the wrong moment and it is know to happen. Well I feel so bad because I did not stop her but if I can't get her to stop following me around then I don't know how to get her to shut up. For the most part it is known that nothing could be said in front of her. You know earlier in the semester she asked me why is it that people get irritated with me and I couldn't tell her I could not answer that question but if she asks me now then I could tell her in a split second.

Am I to Nice!

Well, It is now 9:07 PM and I'm at work and for the most part I am so tired. I feel as though I could just pass out but I will not be getting any sleep today. Why? Well a friend of mine needs a ride to a small town outside of Austin to pick up her boyfriend and I (being as nice as I am) told her I would take her, only I'm so tired I would like to back out but I would feel like a bitch if I did. Well as things arise in my life I feel different on a day to day basis and I'm sure you all do as well, For the most part today at school I was so tired and out of it that I could not think straight, and since I have been approved for the externship there, I was doing paper work most of the day and learning the computer work. Oh why if I have already been there 5 weeks, well for the past 5 weeks I have been doing all the BITCH work. (Please forgive all the cursing but it kind of comes along with both jobs) Well I have been the one to carry 40-50lb boxes of fruits and vegetables. Cleaning out the meat freezer and rearranging the meats (by the way that takes about 1 hour to do) so imagine standing in below 0 degrees moving huge chunks of meat for an hour. Not very nice, unless you like the cold. Well I don't like the cold, trust me at home my roommates keep the house at about 68 - 70 degrees and I'm sleeping with at least 2 blankets, in the SUMMER TIME. Well anyway while at school and all day today I have been so tired, and I'm guessing that it is from having been so hyper yesterday. I used so much energy yesterday that I had nothing for today seriously I could not understand the meaning of stand up today and oh my gosh the Chefs would walk into the purchasing dept. and begin to ask for me to help them out of 6 of us they had to mess with me today but it's okay because once I get my week off here in a couple of weeks and return they will not know what hit them. They will be asking for the new amateurs to help them simply because I will be higher up in the food chain and rested. Damn that sounds good, "HIGHER UP IN THE FOOD CHAIN". Really I am very tired right now so if I'm not making sense please forgive me. So either way I'm at work and the officers are doing everything they can to keep me awake they come to the office and just joke around with me for a while, and the cool thing about it is that they can come in and talk to me for 5 mins. and I feel so much better. Well for the most part at school I may have my problems but I enjoy having to work through them. I enjoy trying to figure out what exactly it is that I must do to keep myself one step ahead of the game.

GREAT!!!

You know that feeling you get after you have had a great day. Well I'm having one right now. Even though I have not felt this great in so long, I just feel as the WHOLE world is revolving around me. Now don't get me wrong I’m not on of these "look-at-ME" people but for the most part when everyone around you just does anything to make you smile and make you feel good even if they don't know they are doing so, it feels wonderful. I mean a week ago the chefs at school would hardly talk to me, or at least the ones that did not have me for class, and today they were making jokes and talking "smack" that it just made me feel comfortable. For the most part after these two weeks, I have a total of at least eight weeks to do my externship in the same department where I am at now (hmm... maybe this is whey the chefs are being nice all of a sudden) But I guess that is fine since I do have to deal with them for the time being. Either way I have enjoyed working with them and will continue. Just not their little jokes of the day or maybe I will miss that too. Okay I'm in to good a mood to actually write something that is going to make sense so I’ll stop here and continue with something else tomorrow.

P. F.

PS. Thanks BRO. LOVE YA

Mothers

Why do they yell at me and give me curfew and treat me as though I'm still a little child and I'm not. Well One thing is for sure YES they do love you, I know mine does. She has proven it to me time and time again without me knowing or asking for it, she just knows when I need her most. First time I ever knew they really loved me was when they sold their 57Chevy Bel Air, to get me a car that would not brake down on me and so that I would not have to depend on my roommate to get around Austin. Then a few months later I get bite by a spider on my left leg and was in and out of the hospital well She drove down to take care of me and to drive me around since I couldn't really drive. Then with Yesterdays events I was so scared and she was worried about me and yet she took time from what she was doing and did again and drove down to Austin to be with me, and let me state that the drive is a 7 to 8 hour drive. Well I might sound like a baby and guess what I am, I'm her baby. I might be 21 and have lots of responsibilities to worry about but when it comes down to it, living in a big city alone, you need that someone who is willing to comfort you time and time again. I come from a small town of 2,200 people and when I moved to Austin 3 years ago I never knew how harsh people could be and yet how sheltered I was, and in the long run in a way I miss it, being with my family. They are the ones that help us get through our though times when we need them most.

What A DAY!

Okay it is now 11:39pm, and my day has been HORRIBLE!

First I wake up late for school and one of my eyes is very irritated.

Second I get to school and we have a crap load of fish to unload

Third a girl from school threatens that I "should be shot, Should be Fu**ing shot in the face" after hearing this I spent most of my day crying and pissed off.

Third I forgot my work shoes at home, and did not realize it until I was out of school and had almost no time to drive home to get the shoes.

Fourth I'm at work and i'm very tired, and still shaken up from the events of my "friend" that does not like me for some odd reason or another. NOTE: still crying. I mean don't get me wrong I could beat the living crap out of this 2lb skinny, hoe, hoochie, frootloop of a bit**. (can you feel the love) but I am a descent person and will not stoop down to her level, and I work with cops it would not be a good thing if I got arrested for assult.

Fifth I decide to take a lunch break and sleep for a half an hour, when I wake up and get back to work, I look in the mirror and my eye is PINK as hell. Yeah I got PINK EYE throughout the course of the day. WONDERFUL JUST WHAT I NEEDED. Well it now being 11:46pm I check the mirror again and not just one but BOTH of my eyes are pink, one bright and completly pink, the other just starting to turn.

So as you can read I have now had the worlds GREATEST day. How did I get through this day I have no idea, but I will tell you one thing, that chick is PSYCHO. I'm telling you know if I ever get shot she should be the first suspect. I'm not going to lie I cried because I truely feel that she would be PSYCHO enough to have me or try to shoot me. It is not a great feeling thinking that you could be shot. I once had a dream about someone holding a gun directly in my face (notice something ironic) and even though it was just a dream it was probably the worst feeling I have ever had in my life.

P.F.

It's been a few

Okay so it has been a few days; sorry I was doing other stuff. First Saturday I finally had some fun, I went swimming and got DARK! Then I went to go see a nice house that I’m not going to rent, then I watched a movie, then I went to a party yes a party for the first time in I don't know how long... aside from the family events...was able to go out because I did not have to work as much as I wanted to hit sixth I was not so lucky but I did have a fun night out. Not only that to top the events of the day it was my MOTHERS B-DAY (Happy B-DAY MOM).

Sunday, nothing much other then sleep and clean house.

Monday, Back to school not much there just the same old same old. Then I did laundry when I got home.

Tuesday, This is where the fun began I went to school and got into an argument with one of the girls I have class with. I was talking to one of the guys in our department (purchasing and receiving) and it was his birthday only he said that if I sung Happy Birthday to him he would stab me. I then told him "did you forget that I work with the cops" and this girl just interrupted and said "no you don't" "you work for campus security" Well our campus security is actually Campus POLICE they hold the title for a reason and are state certified. Well she argued with me about who I work with and honestly do you ever see anyone argue with you about YOUR job? Clearly she has no idea where I work and who I work for and what I do, but can she really TELL me "no you don't" seriously if you only talk to me a total of 20 mins. A day within a time spanned of seven hours will you really actually know what it is that I do for a living. Anyways, Good news I may be able to do my "Externship" (internship) in the department I’m at there at school that is once again purchasing and receiving. Oh yeah two of our instructors were out today one was in a car accident and had to deal with the insurance info. And now has no car till he gets a rental. Another one had a mild Heart attack. To the both of them I can only say I'm glad they are okay they are good guys. Take care both of you. Don't stress you'll get through just fine.

Wednesday (Today) well today...Let's See...I Went to school, at School I was informed that YES I will be able to do my Externship at the school this is awesome I get to boss around the student to come into the department. YEPE also one of our chef instructors came back today he is fine and I'm glad only if your not reading between the lines then you really don't know that "fine" can have two meanings, and let's just say I mean both, he is fine. J/K Also I love rain as you can see from my last blog, but dang, it is flooding outside I got to work and my shoes were soaking wet I had to take them off in the office to dry. Also I told my officers about "my girl" and what she said regarding they being campus "security" "rent - a - cops" dang they got pissed. One told me to tell her to come and push him see if a "rent-a-cop" won't arrest her. Anyways I have a situation and I need to figure it out, I like this guy and he is very sweet and very nice, but I have no idea how to engage him into a real conversation so that we can talk and get to know each other. I have not actually dated anyone realistically since my ex that I broke up with a year and 4mths ago. So as you can see I’m very much out of the game at this point and don't know where to do from here. I have about a total of 3 months to get to know him because the department I am working at in school gives me a chance to see him daily, but I just can't come around to getting some good conversation starters going. What do you think?


P.F.

YAY

Yay RAIN!!

In response to my BRO.

Well Bro. I couldn't agree with you more! Today while at school I realized that it is not that bad if you can just have fun with it, it just feels as though I have two jobs, 7hrs. At the first & 9 in the second do the Math. I don't have much of a life at least 3 days of the week and well my Saturdays are out of the question as well, I work. And then add up the time it takes me to get ready I sleep 4hrs. From Wed. through Fri. But anyways I know in the long run you’re absolutely correct. I guess when the kids do come along that'll really show me stress, that in it's self is a 24hr job. Goodness I feel for Ya. But I bet it's worth it.

Anyway I guess this brings us to the topic of Kids, and Family in general. What do you think about having a family and kids some day? Really honestly I can see myself doing just that I worry too much about if "that guy is the right guy". Well out of seven kids there are only two of us that are not married, and with kids, and for that matter in any type of a relationship. One brother of mine and myself.

So let's get to something else, Today at School, I was so bored and I had a "tail" following me around everywhere I went and did everything I did, woman "get a life". Either way when one of the guys that works there came in later that afternoon he made time fly by so fast, It was awesome that he could cuz come in and lighten things up and have a few laughs.

P.F.

Radio

Okay, so this may not be as interesting as I promised but hey it's a post. Well there are several radio stations in Austin, TX and I can only bring myself to listening to two and the rest of the time it's CD's, why? Now I like a wide range of music and this goes from Classical to Heavy Metal. Let's just say I grew up with four brothers and well the sisters were already married and had kids when I was born so I was stuck being "one of the guys", Yet they still remembered that I was a girl and respected me. But I grew up listening to Metal, Rock, Alternative because of them so I’m sure you've guessed one of the stations I listen to, if your from Austin, Yes 101X. An awesome station by the way. And then of course as I worked in a Dr. Office at one time, our Dr. liked to have music on in the office but he's not one of those it has to be elevator music type so we picked a mix, and found a great station that plays mix, only they may have a little to much BoobySpears playing at times, this station is 96.7 Kiss. Well now I work as a dispatcher and I have a small clock radio I can listen to music but as it is an office not everyone appreciates Metal so we agreed on Mix. So why did I pick radio as my topic I don't know I just love music so much that I figured it gives you an in sight into my life and an idea of who I am.

Laterz P.F.

Things that come to mind

Honestly would you find playing board games, and having a few drinks fun or not?(this includes dominoes, and card games) Well I do and not drink to get drunk, leave that for a party or for 6th street save those times for a night that you just want to let go. But really I find it a lot more fun to stay home invite some friends have a few drinks and play board games. It's a time to laugh and talk and chat away all your worries, you get to meet new people when your friends bring their friends over. You know the only bad thing about my job is that I work both Friday and Saturday night I don't get to go to sixth, or to parties often unless I request the day off two weeks in advance.

You know for really wanting to post tonight and being really bored I can't get much going in my mind except work and school, I CAN'T WAIT till classes are over in 3 1/2 weeks so that way I have every Moment outside of work to have FUN, and just chill, not worry about getting up early for class the next day.

Well As I was just talking to one of my officers, on the phone, I asked for a topic to write about and as "all weird occurs on campus" he was in the University Library at the time, he picked up a book to give me a topic and decided no, then he asked one of the students in the library they said the Birds of America don't really know much of that, so he picked up a magazine and gave me Community Policing.

Well I guess I don't really have much to say about that. But what I do know is that Austin Police are very good people, or at least the ones i've dealt with.

Well What else Today has been a really boring entry and I apologize for that but when you only get four hours of sleep a day you tend to shut down close to the end of the night. Well I'll attempt to get it going better later maybe I just need a drink. or two. or a VACATION for that matter. Yeah if it has taken me about an hour to get this far into my post and not have anything INTERESTING to write about I think that constitutes as a writers block. Well what do you do during WRITERS BLOCK? Me I try to get sleep although I can't do that right now since I'm at work.

LET ME KNOW MAYBE IT WILL WORK FOR ME!!!

Laterz P.F.

P.S. I'll have something better tomorrow. PROMISE!!!

What to talk about...

Okay so lets get this thing going? Question: What is the difference between Communications and Telecommunications? Not a trick question or a joke. Story behind the question; when I was doing my profile for this blogspot, I could not figure out which group I feel under, there were more then one possibilities, they are communications, telecommunications, law enforcement, and security. What do you think? My actual job is a dispatcher for a University Police department?