"The 10th Kingdom"

If you have not seen this movie, well...DO SO!! It's great. Now let me explain it is a made for TV movie, it was a short TV series on NBC some time ago, not to long ago though. So this movie is about 6hrs long and it's great.

A friend of mine let me borrow her movie one weekend and over the course of the weekend managed to watch it 3 times. Yes I know where to I find the time to watch a 6 hour movie three times in a single weekend. Well it's possible, but the next few days you are just way to damn tired, but well worth it.

But for those of you who aren't much about dreams, magic, trolls, queens, kings, and fairy tales, then this may not be a movie for you. Although this movie has just about everything in it from action, fantasies, trolls, magic, love, name it and it just might be in there.

So why mention "The 10th Kingdom" Don't know! Maybe topic for the day or just wanting to watch again. I just really like this movie and recommend it to anyone and everyone.


So on to other topics, don't' really know if I have any other topics. Ooo Well.

PurpleFuel

Prioritize!

So yeah you may have guessed correctly. I'm going to talk about priorities. Well there are many ways to consider priorities the actual definition is: to list or rate (as projects or goals) in order of priority. (Thanks to Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary.)

Well since I have been living on my own I have had to learn to do this exact thing. I have had to figure out exactly what are my priorities. And to be absolutely honest my first year away from home was not my best although I did get to go out and have fun, and I learned to party all the time, but I did not put this before my school. So what do I get, I GOT OUT!. Why well I thought party was the way to go, but then I also think back about who I was hanging out with when I first moved off campus and what exactly it was that we did when we hung out when we were in school to begin with. All we did was party of course the majority of the time I was the D. Driver, but only because she could not hold back for at least one night. So then I'm out of school and what do I decide to do, well I decided to live with her in a two bedroom. Not my best decision! So from here and her is exactly where I learned to prioritize.

Why? Well I think I was put to a test, this girl put me through everything you could possibly think of while living with here, including almost getting evicted. So I'm calming down on my partying ways and learning to put work, rent, and bills first. And realize exactly how important my education really is to me. So what do I do I get back into school. Great right! No, Wrong! I lost my job because I was not working the last minute that they wanted me to, even though I was not getting paid for those last 30mins. Oh well my parents helped me through these times only I did end up in the Hospital or in and out for a spider bite. So my mom comes down to help me out for the next couple of weeks.

Then what you ask? Well simple I got a job where I'm at now, and I was very happy because I love to work here the people are great, eventhough I get a lot of shit from the pissed off "customers" that I get, and...Well...I get a lot of those. Almost a few per shift. Well it will be two years of working here this coming October. So what now you ask. I'm now attending School where I first began four years ago. This is because I don't think I could ever think of something that I have started and left unfinished. Really no, nothing big at least, small things... Nope can't even think of any of those.

Anyways I find it funny that you can prioritize more than one thing. I just got a quote from my cousin, (actually a couple of weeks ago) and it goes something like this "Don't prioritize someone who only consider you an option" And I like this for several reasons, One being that it's true you should put someone ahead of all other opportunities because "there might be a CHANCE" no it's DO or DON'T. It's like in high school you play all these games just to get with the person you like, but then you come back and realize that you've lost so much time and your back on the single list SOON. Second this has helped me to help a friend of mine who was torn waiting for a guy that she liked but was no where to be found or heard. He would not call her or visit or take the long distance challenge even for the summer but someone else came along over the summer and he did look in her direction and I gave her the same quote and it's caused her some good and some bad, but the bad is mostly coming from what most people would say low-self-esteem. I think it's more having been hurt in the past because she is a really great girl, very pretty and very honest and sweet and above all true to herself and her values. And to anybody that is reading this take that same advise "DON'T PRIORITIZE SOMEONE WHO ONLY CONSIDERS YOU AN OPTION" Make your move the worst that can happen is they say NO! Unless your me I'm just to chicken shit to do this myself or old fashion, take your pick.

Okay so look at me I've strayed from the priorities sorry. Uuuummmm priorities yeah, it works, I know it's a part of my job and a part of my life and a very helpful tool. USE IT TRUST ME. But realize what exactly are your priorities before you hurt yourself putting little nothings before seeing the big picture and realized that not everything goes as planned but 99.9% of the time SOMETHING OR SOMEONE BETTER COMES ALONG!

"Dreaming the many Dreams that come to mind, Hope yours are as Sweet as Mine!"
NIGHT!

Purple Fuel

My Celeb. Match

Yup it's MATT DAMON, why? don't know ask them, Do I think he is HOT!!! NO, I think he is beyond H-O-T, He is STEAMING!

So how did I come across this, you ask, well I am at work at the PD, a little bored and in not to bad a mood if I must say, but I was surfing the net being a net bumb and see this link, "what is your celeb. Match?". So I click on it take the quiz and low and behold I match up to Matt Damon. Probably the best choice if I must say :)

What have I been doing, well nothing work, work, work, and my mother is in town so arguing with her as to why I decided to get cable. Yes I made the move and committed to Cable TV. Why? Because I get bored easily. Family comes to visit and they get stuck watching the same DVD's every time. I can make up a whole list of excuses instead of just saying "because I wanted to" but let me put it to you this way; "excuses are like assholes, everybody has one and they stink." (that mad absolutely no sense but I'm a little dingy right now.)

I must really be in a good mood. Considering my very bad week thus far.
1. Stiff neck and shoulder on Monday
2. Had electricity cut out because electricity guy was a dumb ass and got the wrong apartment.
3. Hurt my back moving entertainment center
4. Piece of bone, cut the bottom of my foot, that my moms dog left under my couch.
5. After getting my cable installed they installed the wrong box
6. APARTMENT HUNTING A PAIN IN THE ASS.

But over all of the misfortunes this week, I am in a GREAT MOOD today.

Laterz,
PurpleFuel

Straight Forward

This might piss you off, disgust you, or you just may not care!!!

But lets put PMS, lack of Sleep, Frustration, Anger, Boredom, and let not forget Jealousy together and what do you get?????????

Well I'll tell you...

...A FEMALE DOG!, Yup that's right a BITCH and that is exactly what I feel like right now. Do you find something interesting about my blog from yesterday to today. YEAH A COMPLETE 360. Why I do not know, well let me say that PMS has a big part in it, probably the highest bidder on the table. Well it SUCKS!!!!!

The mood swings, the pains, the frustrations, the hormones and I mean DAMN THE HORMONES. You know my brothers were the ones that got the worst of it while I was growing up, and now that they are not here and I can not take it out on someone, because I will not treat or rather show my friends or co-workers that side of me. Just very unprofessional. Either way, so I get stuck feeling it all alone now. And let me put it to you this way, THROW, THROW, THROW, THROW, THROW!!!!!! That is exactly what I want to do, I want to THROW anything that gets handed to me, I want to trash anything I see, I want to destroy something.

I want to THROW away my frustrations, pains, mood swings, and most of all my DAMN HORMONES!!!! I mean where did Yesterday go, I was so HAPPY, I was on top of the WORLD, I ruled my life. DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN Female problems. DAMN PMS!!!!! But you know what I think it is also the lack of sleep, I have been awake for a total of 32 hours straight and I want to sleep. DAMN ME NOT BEING STRONG AND SAYING NO!!! Very simple word, very simple spelling, very simple annunciation, very simple PLAIN AND SIMPLE!!!! and yet I can not say it to my friends when they ask for HELP!!! Aousilio (spelling this is Spanish for help), You see when I say that I am going to think of myself and not worry or put myself in a position that will cause me stress there I go two minutes later and do exactly that. I think about helping someone out and instead I FU*K MYSELF OVER!!! I end up, upset, angered, frustrated, and simply PISSED. Not at my friend but at myself for not being able to say that one SIMPLE word N-O!!!

Okay I think I got it out. But I ask you can you please help me to say NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!!!


If those of you who don't know me I do not normally speak in this obscene language, but when you see the difference from one day to the next and you just want to THROW things then they come naturally.

For those of you who do know me, I'M SORRY YOU HAD TO READ THAT coming from my finger tips.

Always PurpleFuel

Courage

It's amazing how only a couple of things that change or come to light in a day or two can make you change the way you think, feel, and encourage yourself.

You see you might think I'm crazy for this or off in one way or another, but you feel so great that you just think, no, know that you are on top of the world. And don't confuse what I'm saying with "I know it all" because no one "knows it all". I am simply saying that I feel like a million bucks right now, and I'm on only a few hours of sleep and I have to be at a "second job" per-say at 9am, although this is only a temp. one day thing to help a friend out but then shortly after that I have to go to my regular job and I feel that I can handle it all because these last two days have shown me an enormous amount of courage, power, or some sort of force that helps me to achieve all that I set out to do.

I feel as though I'm a lion, king (or in my case Queen) of my territory, with no one to push me around and put me down. My feelings of jealousy, sadness, shyness, selflessness, and hopelessness has just been lifted off my shoulders and I feel as though today is a new beginning for me. A new adventure to look forward to, to change my way of life, my way of thinking, my way of emotional distress. But yet still be able to hold on to the same values and morals instilled by my family.

I ask one thing of you, If ever my physical, emotional, and mental transformation come to change my morals and values, please tell me, let me know. My feelings well not be hurt, my life will not end, and I will never show hatred toward a fellow human. I say this because I want to be a better person physically, emotionally, and mentally so that I am better suited to help others, not myself. I DO NOT EVER WANT TO SEE MYSELF, PUTTING MYSELF BEFORE OTHERS! I will never belittle another human for as long as God allows me to. But please do not confuse belittle with truth, I will not lie to someone only to cause them harm, but I will tell them the truth, harsh or not, to help them achieve greatness within themselves.

At times my words can get harsh to certain individuals, but believe me when I say that I do not do this to hurt them rather to let them see that what they are doing is not helping them or others, just hurting. I have a friend (lets call her "A")who on a constant basis complains about being treated "wrongfully" by another one of our friends (we'll call her "B"), and one day she began to get snippy with me. Well I flat out told her "A" that I do no like being treated that way and that I unlike her will not put up with being treated as a joke, or a "nobody". She got rather upset and got even snippier saying that she was not doing such a thing. Well later that week, she "A" was being treated the same by friend "B" and she then finally after years of putting up with such "crap" stood up for herself for the first time since "B" began treating her less and less of a friend and more as an object. Well "A" called me to tell me that she finally stood up to "B" and she did not feel bad for it either. That she did not feel as though she had done something wrong. And I then confessed to her that my having told her what I did the week prior was exactly for that, to prove to her that no one should be treated any less than what they are, A CHILD OF GOD, A LIVING, BREATHING, HUMAN! And that no she did not do something wrong. Because standing up for yourself, and your self esteem is not wrong.

So if ever I start to get snobby, or sassy, or self-indulged. SLAP ME! HARD!

Always PurpleFuel